I have no excuses

The morning walk

Some interesting thoughts came to the surface while I was enjoying my daily walk in the park.

 First - ants and the universe to describe heaven.  Yes, you read that right.  Don't even ask.  I have to work on that a little to see if its even worth trying to articulate here. 

Second - Souls, when are they created and are there a finite number of them?  I've done just a trickle of research on my thoughts and, as I suspected, they veer off a little toward re-incarnation stuff and I'm not really on board with that. At. All.  But it might make an interesting work of fiction.

Pondering...

On second thought...

My hair is still too short.  But I decided to start loving it.  So now, I'll just wait for it to grow out a bit and I think it will be exactly what I wanted.  It's growing on me, literally and figuratively.

I took a brief stroll in my herb gardens this evening.  Oh my goodness, color me JOY-FILLED!!  How can I possibly consider not growing this year?  Seriously.  It's happening, God willing.  The perennials are already doing so well!  Beautiful winter savory, oregano, lavendar, sage, sweet woodruff and coneflowers in the front bed along with the asiatic lilies and day lilies I planted last year.  They are coming up strong and healthy and self propagating abundantly.

In the back the weeds are really just providing a nice cover for the mints, oregano, thyme and columbines.  I tried a few flowers last year and it looks like they're gonna do well!

I thought perhaps we would dig up the lonely raspberry plant we had left at the end of last season, or at the very least let it die like the other 6-8 did.  And then my neighbor brought down her mother load of raspberry shoots that she dug up.  Health reasons prompted her to simplify and get rid of all her garden.  They've been sitting in the same buckets she hauled them down here in her wagon.  I considered giving them away.  Then I took a walk in the backyard and what did my happy eyes behold?  Raspberry bushes, thriving like they never, ever have in the eight or nine years we've had them there.  Needless to say, we'll be getting those other plants in the ground ASAP.

Gardening is so unpredictable.  Just when you think it's not worth it and are ready to throw in the towel, God gives you a little nudge and says, wait.  Wait.  And then he shows you the possibilities and results of waiting and fills you up with happy and reminds you why you love digging in the dirt and basking in the sunshine.

The weekend forecast looks good and the backyard is beckoning.  How can I resist?  I don't plan to.  There are things to do and the birds are looking for their seed!
 
Ridiculously happy Spring!!!



Susan


 

Short hair and Sabbath

I got my hair cut this morning.  Way shorter than I expected.  Melt down complete.  It will grow out, and all that unhealthy hair is gone. 

I'm pondering Sabbath.  Perhaps I should just give the whole writing idea a rest, a Sabbath.  I wonder what it would be like to just be, and not do.  I wonder what a summer with that kind of existence might look like...

One moment, please

One of my favorite lessons in recovery? A slight change to an old adage:

"Don't just DO something, SIT there!"

Sometimes inaction is much more appropriate and helpful than reacting to something without the benefit of prayer and quiet time just to consider the bigger picture.  Many times things we believe to be problems for us to solve work themselves out given enough time and space.

The answer to a question or request isn't always yes or no, often it is simply "wait".

Susan

Elusive moments

Wrap your head and heart around this...

We are not responsible for anyone else's happiness.

No one else is responsible for our happiness.

Freedom.

The end.